Saturday, September 10, 2005

hmmmx... i'm back to update moii blog agaiin.. lolx.. think i'm verii tired lerhx.. didn't have a good rest at all... since yesterday nite till todae morniin.. reallii verii stressed up and tired!! wan to have a gud rest oso cannot... haviin sho many ppl to concern bout miie i'm sho touched... but why? why mux let miie hear this kind of bad news? why let miie see those msgs that will break moii heart agaiin?? i hao bu rong yi calm down lerhx.. jux finish moii thoughts.. wan to bravely stand up lerhx.. and there goes the msg agaiin.. telliin miie derrick first day in ns ishh norrt gud.. have lotx of pumpiin and stuffs!! when i saw that message, moii heartx was totally hurtx..mind blank..nth i could do but to stare at those messages... wat can i do? no niid to say.. i burst into tears immediately agaiin... i cannot control myself..sorrie... norrt blamiin moii frenx ferr telliin miie this.. still mux thanks her ferr updatiin miie bout derrick even though he ishh in ns...

and ferr now it ishh like moii mind realli totally blank at the moment.. jux feel like askiin someone to lend miie a shoulder.. and moii two sistax, cory and scze we was norrt there.. cosh recently, i'm realli close to them.. closer to moii own sistax that i spent wiif ferr 4 years..cosh i can rarely see them lerhx.. we are like driftiing apart within each other due to studies.. but i dunnch blame them.. it's norrt up to their means.. but i told scze we.. cosh she was msgiin miie.. the first person i told was her.. den passed the message to cory lerhx.. she msg miie immediately after she saw moii msg... i was like sho touched.. thnx cory and scze we.. thnx ferr being there when i niid u.. reallii thnx alot.. especially cory.. even when u are doiin hwk, u made an effort to accompany miie by sms.. i hope i didn't gave u trouble... hope u finish ur hwk lerhx.. sorrie..

and i was realli hopiin ferr moii own sistax to cum and shower miie some concern.. jux like how scze we and cory concern bout miie.. they asked miie HOW I AM FIRST before they start to ask miie bout weijian.. they console miie FIRST.. told miie norrt to cry and all that.. although it's too late, but it's much appreciated.. ok den.. finally i saw huirong online.. jux feel like goiin up to her and ask her to lend miie a shoulder.. and if i am at the beach now i shall shout out and pour out all moii troubles.. i realli can't stand it lerhx.. well.. i've been too stressed lerhx.. there are somethings that ishh norrt i dunwan to say..ishh when i say will u all still care bout miie.. u will fly to weijian there lerhx...ok forget it den.. was askiin weijian to take care.. but despite his tough day in ns, he still told miie to take gud care of myself.. and that makes miie more hurt and sad... cosh despite him haviin such a tired day, he still concern bout miie.. weijian realli thnx alot...

ok.. and now was tokiin to huirong.. and erm.. haviin cold war wiif rouhui.. dunnoe why.. wat thing caused such a BIG MISUNDERSTANDING!! me myself oso dunnoe.. jux noe that i can't contact her whenever i wan to..cosh she ishh sho busy that we are drifting apart from each other anymore.. well.. it's norrt within moii means.. and sho many people at one time come to BUG me bout weijian thingy!! and there ishh this STOOPID IDIOT!! kiip askiin bout how, why wat happen? WAT DO U THINK? WAT DO U THINK I CAN DO? AM I SUPPOSE TO REPLY U ORHX.. DUNNOE LEHX.. MAYBE U CAN GO TEKONG SEE WEIJIAN LORHX..!! IZZIT? MUX I TELL U TILL LIKE THIS? damn fed up wiif this kind of farkiing ppl.. was damn stress at that moment.. and yet.. i have moii dearest TWIN SISTAX who always been on moii mind yet to quarrel wiif miie, addiin up to moii stress.. wat do u expect miie to do? everyone's askiin miie the same qns.. everyone askiin miie ferr info.. i put it down there ishh ferr.. i dunnoe how to say.. but jux u all wun understand de...

and i think rouhui.. seriously, we are drifting further apart lerhx.. i dun even noe u anymore.. jux like u.. u dun even noe miie anymore lerhx.. i've never DENY u are moii twin sistax.. jux like wat u told miie.. I'M ALWAYS THERE FOR U!! but haiix.. forget it.. i dunnoe wat i'm doiin now.. moii whole mind ishh jux sho empty.. everythiin in moii braiin ishh weijian.. how ishh he lerhx.. ishh he fine? tmr morniin 5 am muz wake up now 12 plus lerhx haven sleep.. wat am i suppose to do? realli.. jux dunnoe wat i'm doiin k.. and of cosh i do miss the times we 3 sistax were sho maddy!! goiin out like a mad dog!! 23.07.05 i told u guyx it ishh moii most memorable day isn't it.. i was hopiin ferr another day to cum.. but will there be? there are somethings when u lost it, it can never be revive back agaiin.. jux like our sistax feeliins.. i hope it did norrt blend till a little bit of chances oso hard to reverse back lerhx... get wat i mean? do u realli get it?

and moii stomach was like growling sho loudly!! i was in a fit of anger!! reallii.. i didn't meant to say anythiin bad k.. i apologize ferr moii poor attitude.. sorrie to all ppl ytd that i ignored.. realli didn't meant it.. u gerlx gorrt to give miie time to think thru.. i'm norrt those hu can think thru within few mins.. i niid time.. maybe a night, maybe a week.. maybe a months.. maybe a few years.. and till now i'm sho hungry yet haviin a cold war!! i was realli... haiix.. oso dunnoe larhx.. forget it lerhx...

nahx.. it ishh in the afternoon now lerhx.. i didn't slept properly since yesterday till now.. was sho tired!! but jux can't get to sleep.. the moment i close moii eyes, weijian's image of being totured will captured in moii mind.. and i jux can't bring myself to tears.. everynight.. i've been thinkiin.. but when will the day when in moii heart the big hole will recover? when will that ever be? am i gonna be sho hurt? from him since sec 1.. till weijian.. he's elimination.. revival round.. and stuffs.. and unfortunately being ousted agaiin.. all these things never get away from moii heart.. it's always there.. once hurt, it will always be there lerhx.. once the scar ishh there, it can never be removed.. unless the person itself come and remove it.. but weijian, i dunnch wish ferr more.. i now onlii wish that u can jian chi dao di in ns.. and no matter how xin ku it ishh, dunnch give up!! moii frenx told miie that u're training to be a more MATURE MAN wif BIG MUSCLES!! sho to have that results u gorrt to bear wiif those totures.. and yupx.. thinkiin and thinkiin i felt it was verii right.. i will support u de, weijian!! cosh i believe u will be able to make it de.. i will always be here to support u.. give u strength.. give u courage.. sho u muz jiayou k!!

and ytd after haviin a BIG COLD WAR, FINALLY ALL THE MATTERS ARE RESOLVED!! we 3 sistax are back agaiin.. FINALLY!! the 3 MADDIES!! gonna open a seow char bor account.. jiie say de.. hahax.. lukiin forward ferr it niia.. ok was like sho happiie.. the burden was like finally i can relax it down and can turn off moii com and go stare at the ceiliings.. watever quarrels have on tt day, i will solve it on that day.. i dunnch wish to delay and delay, that makes our sistax relationship more blend until it ishh gone..lucky we are strong.. that's why we are bonded back agaiin.. alright sistax here's a sentence from miie.. the bottom heart of miie.. NO MATTER WAT HAPPENS, U ALWAYS HAVE ME HERE TO BE THERE FOR U!! LOVE U SISTAX 4EVA!!
get it? i will always be there ferr u.. gorrt anythings can cum tell miie.. pour ur troubles watsoever.. i'm more den willing to listen.. rmb moii hp ishh on 24 hrs de.. can contact miie i'm always online.. dun see miie online call miie.. moii shoulder ishh always ferr u all de!! hope u all can understand moii pains.. hope u all wun blame ferr moii wilfulness.. cosh tt's miie- jeannie.. which i can't change it.. it's forever miie.. if i'm gonna change, jeannie wun be jeannie le...

eh.. wat am i tokiin man.. forget it.. jux hope u gerlx gorrt moii msg.. alright take care.. it ishh a long post.. sorrie people.. let u all read till sho pek ceh.. hope u all dunnch mind.. jux like wat kero says, those hu realli reads moii blog are moii real frenx.. if norrt u ought to be FLUSH INTO THE TOILET BOWLS!! those are norrt moii good pals.. jux get away from miie k.. dunnch intrude my life.. shoo~ dunnch hurt miie.. get lost...!!

ok.. wei choong.. todae u go ns lerhx.. todae it's ur turn lerhx.. hope ur first day norrt like weijian ok.. rmb to train to a MORE MATURE GUY wiif BIG MUSCLES, u muz NEVER give up k!! we fans are always here ferr u all de.. think of the project superstars.. all these things that u undergoes, its worth it.. hang in there.. 2 years lata u will be great.. weijian u too.. i will pray ferr u de!! jiayou!! darryl oso goiin ns lerhx.. jiayou!! all take care.. norrt to forget moii dearest garett kor.. u too jiayou k!! kor, will i be seein u on the 30th of sept? hahax.. shuld be larhx horx.. leon gorrt perform mahx... hehex... kor if u see moii msg pls reply miie k.. hahax.. kor take care.. meii lurbx euu always!! [ eh, ppl pls dun misunderstand ].. it's bro and meii de relationship.. hahax.. alright everyone pls take care!!

I'm gonna faint soon.. since yesterday afternoon till now..i have norrt eaten.. norrt a proper meal!!! wah lau!! moii stomach growliin.. but.. dunnoe why when i see the food in front of miie, it feels sho GAO WEI!! as in cookies or biscuits or wat.. jux dunnch feel like eatiin it.. gggrrrrhhh!!! alright peeps.. end here lerhx.. take care k..
cheerz,
Jeannie... missiin derrick hoh wei jian loads...

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